Winter Solstice In Oregon
Image by Gina Bobina
My head has ached all day. After 8 Advil’s, liquids and food, my head still pounds. A dull ache behind my eyes has consumed my day. Feels like such a waste… but what am I to do? Hell, my head hurts.
It was a beautiful day…sunny and ever so bright, yet cold. I was supposed to take my butt out to the fence: My outdoor gallery. I just couldn’t do it. Tomorrow I’ll go out, if the weather permits. I hear rain is coming our way. Oh, the funs of being an independent artist.
As the calendar year comes to an end…I reflect. Who doesn’t? Yeah, I know very original. Anyway, I reflect on the ups and downs of the year. Overall, I’ve been extremely blessed. I’ve traveled. I’ve created. I’ve moved in with my guy. I’ve added to my family, with two wonderful pups. My family loves me. Abundance has swirled around me like unexpected gusts of wind: A delightful surprise. In reflection, the blessings stand out taking center stage. The understudies are on the sidelines. I won’t ignore them.
The unfinished business of 2012 will come with me, invited, into 2013. I want gallery representation. Nothing has changed. I do not want to do it all. I merely want to paint. I don’t want to sell my work myself.
I was speaking with another artist, who sells work on the fence, recently. We both stated we were tired of having to dummy-down our work to make a living. Dummying down our work – is boring, it's limiting, it's less creative, less intense and the overall quality is lacking. Why put your heart and soul into a piece that simply gathers dust? Don’t get me wrong…I love painting and challenging myself, but when it comes to making a living – there is no way I’m going sell a solid painting for chump change. I’d rather starve.
I will find a gallery(s) to carry my work. I just will. With little desire to start up my own gallery, I will find the right outlet(s) for my work. The fence will become a thing of the past.
I’m not going home for the holidays this year. Student loan debt gobbled up my airfare! But that’s ok, as I’ll make a short visit in January. I need to be renewed, yet again. Old growth forest and my son’s smart-ass face! Yes, those two things give me a second wind to carry on with a certain giddiness, which will last me for another stretch of time. Reaching for more Advils.